Maggi 2006-2014
They say it’s the dash inbetween the birth and the death that count. And Maggi you lived your dash to the fullest. Maggi came into my life at a very critical time. She had a big job to do and had just the right big personality to get that job done. I also believe with everything in me that her death is also part of her job, the final assignment if you will. I have to believe this in order to survive her death. One of the reasons I know this is that today, the day her memorial is posted is July 3rd. Guess what day we brought her home 8 years ago. Yep July 3rd. God is good and gives us little messages to let us know that He is in charge of life and death. And it was indeed Maggi’s time to go. And as long as I know God is in the midst of this then I know I will survive and that good will come from it regardless of how hard it is. I have to believe that her job on earth is through now. I have to believe this is why God took her too soon, at least too soon for me. I wrote Maggi a letter the night she died and in it I promised her that once I get through the tears and pain and lonliness I will look for why her job here was done. But until then my heart is breaking every day. I come home and she is not there to greet me. I go to bed at night and she is not beside me. I look down and she is not at my feet. I still have not been able to go into my sewing room and work on my quilt. She was always either curled up under my sewing machine or laying somewhere else in the room. She has left a huge hole in my life. But I know that one day I will put that finished quilt over me and remember Maggi and her love. Both the love she had for me and the love I had for her. At first it felt like I couldn’t go on but it’s only been a week and I am doing somewhat better. I am even smiling at some of her memories. Some of those memories are of her and her chickens. She loved to herd her chickens and was so proud when she would get them to do what she wanted them to. She also loved to swim. I remember one time while we were out for a walk. She unexpectedly jumped into a small ditch and the water was much deeper than any of us expected, she went completely under the water. Fortunately she had her harness on so no harm done. She was much more careful jumping into unknown water after that. And then today we were outside working in the backyard. And for the first time (a little over a week since her death) I called her to come in with us So it is with a very sad heart that we say goodbye to our little Mags. Maggi you are forever in our hearts and I am changed forever for the better because of you. I’m having a hard time saving this because I know it’s another step in saying goodbye and I’m just really not ready to.