Tiny

Tiny came to me about 12 years ago when my husband’s grandfather passed away.  My mother-in-law had taken her into her home and was going to raise her until her and I met and fell in love with each other.  I had to beg her to let me take Tiny and raise her as mine.  She finally let me have her but first I had to promise her that if I ever decided to give Tiny up then I had to give her back to her since she was her daddy’s baby.  She quickly became my baby and her and I were together for the next 12 years.  My baby girl had it rough with our family though.  She liked to go for rides and when my nieces were playing in the car one day, Tiny thought they were going for a ride and was going to jump into the car and they closed the door on her and I had to rush her into the hospital and see if she would survive  this terrible accident. Later in her little life she was attacked by my parents’ neighbors dogs and then a little later was ran over by a truck when she was running into the house.  She was lost in the mountains and I thought I had lost her forever and some people riding four wheelers found her and called me and I was reunited with my little angel once again.  She was such a wanderer an if you weren’t watching her she would disappear real quick before you realize it.  After that she wasn’t let out without being in a pet carrier or on a leash.  Then we just realized she was losing weight so fast and was eating so much and come to find out that my little baby was sick.  I was trying to come to terms with putting her down when she passed on her own. I will forever live with so much guilt for all that she went through and for letting her suffer.  But I will forever miss her like no other.  She was my baby and my house is so lost and lonely without her in it.  I want her home so bad and and so much.  I hate to come home without her here and I never want to leave knowing that she isn’t here.  I hate waking up and she’s not cuddled up next to me waiting to go potty.  I hate going to sleep knowing that she’s not there next to me cuddling up and going to sleep.  I miss you so much my Tiny girl.  Mommy will be with you some day again.  Rest in peace and let grandpa keep you company until we meet again.  I love you and miss you so much!